Well my christmas CD is finished. Tonight was my last night in the recording studio fixing the tiny details on the CD and I hope to have copies ready to send out by thursday. I AM SO EXCITED! Although I doubt anybody in "high places", except maybe God, will appreciate it, it was so much fun to record and it was a much needed project for the "self-esteem" level. Anyway, just wanted to update on my life. I'm really happy. I just hope my present mood won't come to a crashing halt come New Years.

So I saw Harry Potter last night and it was AWESOME!!! I love Harry Potter. HE'S AWESOME. Well technically Daniel Radcliffe is awesome , BUT IT WAS ALL STILL REALLY AWESOME! *sigh*. I can't wait till it comes out on DVD. I shall buy it. yes buy it I shall...because it was awesome.

This post may be a bit depressing.

I am frustrated.

Have you ever been in the situation where you don't know if what your doing is right or wrong? Like if you don't know whether you should be building up walls between yourself and certain people or whether God put them in your life for a special reason? I'm in that type of situation. I've been in that type of situation. I am so lost because whether I communicate with this person or whether I stay disconnected (like I have for four months), I still end up hurting, I'm still so confused. I'm finding it increasingly hard to pretend like everything's perfect in my life. I want to cry and I want to scream but I want to be strong and I know that you can't say your strong and have an emotional breakdown in the middle of school. But strength is so burdensome. It's so lonely. I'm so frustrated.

Is there really such a thing as "ignorant bliss"?

Which is better, to be ignorant but happy or knowledgable but depressed?

Does the situation at hand make ignorance better or is it all around a bad thing?

Which would you rather be?